hi ive been kinda busy and i decidied to write here stuff that happens like a docummentation off a downwoards spiral


 11/11/22 im listening to sematary's truey jeans, ive been feeling kinda manic lately so pure noise is something ive been listening to
i had some fucked up thoughts like isnt it fucked up to leave a friend on a hard moments? i didnt do it but it hapenned to me so ive been confused
i wish i had someone to talk to i think itd be fun being normal with someone. its pretty hard to have friends when you just learned you have bpd and can do nothing 
about it, good thing ive been taking pills to keep this down and maybe if i go to therapy enough i can get better to have friends, im getting tired so ill sleep.